If this is you then here is a gentle reminder: inner work and growth never happen in a straight line. When you start to make changes in your inner world and remove barriers in your thinking and nervous system and start to make more and more changes in your daily routines and habits, the floodgates to life begin to open.
Where there may have been confusion, an absence of inner peace, vision, and hope, suddenly clarity, creativity, and joy flood in (or out?). "Ah - yes! Finally - this is how I want to feel!" There is this thrill, excitement, and sheer joy of experiencing life in unobstructed flow.
And then - suddenly- it can feel like the barriers are back, the flow stops and you feel like you're back where you were before. 'Have I moved at all?' 'Will I ever get out of this place?' 'It is all pointless.'
Remember: the river that moves sideways or loops 'back' still flows forward.
Those windy passages have less of a forward thrust. That is their purpose: they are designed to dig deeper into the rigid riverbed and clear out the deeper levels of your mind and soul. They cannot be skipped and are absolutely crucial for your continued forward movement.
Growth requires patience and commitment. Happiness requires courage.
Accept and embrace the windy parts. If you want fast progress, remember that in personal development, 'fast' always comes from 'deep' and 'slow'. Your river loops back to slow you right down so you can explore distance in depth.
Observe "Ah - I am back 'here' ". Is it true? What can I learn here? Get interested and curious in your own geography - the map of your unconscious mind. Inquiry, acceptance, compassion and curiosity are the first steps that reconnect us to the flow.